Reflection

 A year has passed.  A whole 365 days.  Let me tell you there were many times I thought it was never going to end.  It has been the longest year I’ve ever had.  It’s been the worst year, but also the best.

Exactly one year ago I fell on my face and it hurt a lot.  I never knew it was possible to hurt that much and survive.  It felt like someone ripped my heart out and stamped all over it.  I don’t think pain like that ever really goes away.  It’s always there; you just have to decide if you are going to let yourself learn something from it.  A lot has happened since then and I’ve changed, but I will always remember what happened.

I don’t know how it happened.  I didn’t see it coming, that’s for sure, but in a way I’m sort of glad it did.  Although I’m on the guard now more than ever, I did learn a lot of important things about myself and others.  People are going to fail and hurt you.  That’s just human nature.  You will even fail yourself at times, but you can’t just give up either.  We all need to rely on people for certain aspects of our lives, so banning yourself from people isn’t an option.  You fail yourself and you push yourself harder so you won’t fail again.  Yeah, you get mad and upset when people and you fail, but you don’t let that stop you.  You continue on and you learn from it, because if you stop you are nothing and there is nothing that is worth anything.   You forgive and you move on the best you can.  You beg and pray it won’t happen again, yet you are now prepared in case it does.