WTF is this life

 I know you fell down, and your tears are flowing Your heart's turn to lead along with your head The world's turned over and then everything's backwards Your paths gone dark, and the stars ran away You wish someone would turn on the sun For in crash your walls and round stand the neighbors All pointing and laughing and hooting and hollering Thinking its funny this pain you're feelin all the while your heart withers Your soul dies and hope runs away to the point where you feel like fading,  crawling in a hole and dying there and it makes you wonder  would anyone care? Well I tell you my friend, I would care Though I can't speak for the six billions other out there Let it be known one soul will be crying So hold onto life while you still possess it For hope's always there You just have to find it  Around the next bend or over the hill I promise my friend, I promise its there But until you find it Just know that I care. 

In continuance from the earlier post.....it's not that I have made sure since then I have not been home unless I absolutely had to...Its not that I played every sport I could (except stupid volleyball) just to avoid that place...it's not that I run insanely hours in early mornings and the late evenings just to make sure I am safe in a place that is no longer safe. It's not that at the beginning of this summer, I left home for 2 weeks and lived on the streets of Detroit with some friends, and found that those streets of one of the most dangerous cities in the country was safer then the place called my home...its not that no one even noticed I was gone for those 2 weeks.  It is the fact that: my wrists have been sliced and drained in order to give an outlet for the pain that can't find its way out.  It is the fact that: my tolerance for physical pain has increased for once again an outlet of the inner pain.  It is the fact that: this summer, my 2 older brothers found out ...