WTF is this life

 She hates looking at him, this seemingly pleasant presenter of information. He serves only to stifle any attempt at change. He does so by promising, instead, to provide the motivation she desperately needs. LYING JERK! And he lies in the worst way, by telling the unabashed truth.  It is really unnerving how he operates. He sucks her in under the guise of friendly advice. He has been around for as long as she can remember, like an old family friend who's always there, so unassuming, all the while luring her deeper and deeper under his spell.  He helped her to learn how to drive. She was so excited and anxious. She listened intently to everything he told her, becoming obsessed with what he said. His endless advice proved dangerously distracting. That's what really caused the accident. But, as usual, she blamed herself and he just stood there, looking innocent, almost inanimate.  She remembers the fun times they had when they were younger. How they would mouth the word...

My life is a fucked up mess at the moment. It's not that I was pregnant. It's not even that my family is out to disown me because I was pregnant. It's not even that I am only 16 and pregnant. I would have figured it out like so many other 16 year old have had to do.  It's that I didn't have a say in this at all. It's not even that the one who got me pregnant was my father. It's not even that this was seen as a blemish on HIS reputation and that could never happen. Its that my voice didn't matter in this moment. So what is the issue you ask if these things that are so definitely issues are not it.  Okay, so it may be a little of the fact that it was my father that did this and that as always we had to protect his perfect reputation and position. But more then that....it IS:  Its the fact that I didn't have a choice in what came next. It's the fact that at 16, I was forced to have an abortion, with no consideration that this may have an impact on a...