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Crushed

 When you look back on your life or even certain aspects of life, you see things that you did not expect to happen.  And yet at the same time, deep down inside, your were afraid of that very thing happening.  You decided to let hope have a chance, and it was the hardest thing you could possibly have done.  You were constantly fighting, each moment to go against my normal instinct. For awhile, life continued and nothing happened, everything was great.  It was so great, that you really started to have hope, that things would/could be different.  And you became comfortable in a new situation that you swore you would never be comfortable in.  AND THEN IT HAPPENED...as it always does. Your life was crushed and you were left to pick up the pieces again.  But what do you do, when you realize that it is harder and harder every time something happens. It becomes harder and harder to pick up those pieces and to continue on.  Sure life goes on and doesn...
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The Room

 When you look back on your life or even certain aspects of life, you see things that you did not expect to happen.  And yet at the same time, deep down inside, your were afraid of that very thing happening.  You decided to let hope have a chance, and it was the hardest thing you could possibly have done.  You were constantly fighting, each moment to go against my normal instinct. For awhile, life continued and nothing happened, everything was great.  It was so great, that you really started to have hope, that things would/could be different.  And you became comfortable in a new situation that you swore you would never be comfortable in.  AND THEN IT HAPPENED...as it always does. Your life was crushed and you were left to pick up the pieces again.  But what do you do, when you realize that it is harder and harder every time something happens. It becomes harder and harder to pick up those pieces and to continue on.  Sure life goes on and doesn...
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Broken Wings

  In the darkest lonely place  shivering in the cold  A young girl hid in silence,  too beautiful to behold ~  Her eyes were masked in terror  while she could only see  The hopelessness she only knew  and the longing to be free. She does not see her beauty  she only sees the pain  And lives within the memory where  her darkest times remain ~  Tears fall softly to the floor  as the fear from deep within  Envelop her in the silence  of the whispers of the wind. The slightest touch or friendly hug  rekindles her greatest fears  As she recoils inside herself  where she sheds her silent tears ~  She hides within her loneliness  the only way she knows  While outside she smiles to mask the fear  she never wants to show. The deepest scars of her life  inflicted with such pain  Of the betrayal that prevents her  from being whole again ~  The trust that once was broken...
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Only to live another day

 She stands alone, off to the side.  Unable to help, wishing she could, she dies.  Pain blinds her as she watches It slip through her grasp.  She wants so much to hold on, but she can't stop It from drifting away. She wishes It wouldn't leave, but It does.  She can still remember the good ol' days when It was by her side, there never to leave.  She can feel It, and this all seems to be a dream, but when she turns, It's gone.  And she cries...she cries for the lost dreams, the lost chances, the lost emotions, the lost friends...The tears flow, turning streams into rivers...but nothing she can do can bring It back.  And she dies...Only to live another day, this time stronger and harder...with each loss the wall grows higher...and it kills her, but she cannot stop the building...It will never return, It never does, and so she must add another brick to shield her from that hurt.  Years down the road she looks back on her life and she sees the wal...
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Gone

 I can almost see her, like a faded memory that has been burned into the depths of my soul.  I can almost feel her, as i try to grasp my thoughts around all she stands  for.  I reach out, but cannot seem to touch her I try and try again.  I blink my eyes, as the tears start streaming, my vision has become  clouded.  Shes still here...somewhere...somehow.... People begin to fall all around me, people I once knew and loved I cannot seem to reach them either.  Desperately clinging to what I once was, I began to fall as well.  I have lost her...she is gone... Will I ever be able to find her?
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Quotes #2

 You asked me what was wrong and I said "nothing". But when you left the room I whispered "everything" Time never dies, the circle is not round The highest reward for your work is not what you get for it, but what you become by it.  Success is not perfection; success is slightly above average I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none.  You cam become blind by seeing each day as a similar one. Each day is a different one, each day brings a miracle of its own. It's just a matter of paying attention to this miracle.  The worst part about being lied to is realizing you weren't worth the truth.  I'm hiding behind your mirror, the longer you stare at me, the better you see yourself.  You can hold my hand, and kiss away my tears, but never venture to say "I love you" because no one can ever back that up. 
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Expectations

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  I have gone through some adversity in my life.  Deaths of friend far too young to be taken from the world.  Monumental boughts of future-crushing underachievement.  Shattered young love.  Fights.  Insecurity.  Depression. Rage.  I have experienced all of this and much more.   But I am far from unique in this facet of life.    Everyone has gone through some pretty tough times, in the end I am lucky and privileged to be where I am today.    It’s probably safe to assume that someone say in Africa or other third world countries, probably has gone through way more than I have in my 20 years.    But this is not the point I’m trying to make.  Life throws obstacles in your path.    It always will.    That is the nature of the beast.    Maybe you’ll be riding a high for quite some time, but inevitably hardships will arise.    It doesn’t matter how rich, how famous, how p...
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